Mom??

Cam- mom do you have your camera with you?

Mom- yes

Cam- do you have any videos of me when I could walk? I want to watch one so I can remember when I could walk.

Mom- Oh, Cam, I don't have any videos like that on my camera, but I do at home, I will have dad bring them.

Cam starts crying. I really just wish I could walk
I want to be back to my old self.

Oh Cameron, I am so sorry. You will be your old self very soon. If I could take this away from you and have it be me instead I would.

But I don't want that mom. I don't want you to be sick.
I'm just the scaredest kid in the whole world.

Cam you are the bravest and you will be out of here so soon.

After rubbing his arms for a few minutes then going back to my bed...

Cam- Mom, I just feel kinda scared right now, can you come sit close to me so I can see you.
Sure Cam, I'm right here. And off to sleep he went.

This conversation was at 11:50pm Cam had fallen asleep at 10:00pm but the nurse had to come give him some meds at 11pm so we had to wake him up. It took about 20 minutes of convincing to get him to take the meds then he had a hard time going back to sleep.

I know that he really will be able to go home soon and my heart is joyful at the progress he makes everyday, but it breaks my heart to hear him say things like this. He is only 5.
Of course he is scared, of course he wants to go home, wants to walk again, and wants to be back to his old self.